FOP was good. love the praise and worship. :)
things are happening at home again. to think of it, it seems like i'm not allowed to grow up normally like other kids. i know everyone's families have their own problems.. but mine just seems waaaaaay to dramatic and it involves me too much. i always believe that as long as u are still staying under the same roof as ur parents, u will be under the protection of ur family. but for my case, i dun even have much of a family to begin with. thats sad i know. the stress and pressure is building up now that i'm back at home again. so "home" to me is not the best place for me to be in. =/ time and again i will ask myself and ask God why is it so hard for me to have a proper family, to grow up as a normal kid.
growing up caned everyday when i was pri 1 and 2, for god-knows-wat reasons. growing up thru all those screams and quarrels, when i used to hide in one corner and cry. grow up with serious suicide at home, having to handle suicide and sch work at the same time. it's damn tough. i dun think anyone (except God) will ever understand how that feel. how that i've grown up with all those hurts and scars, i'm glad to say that i've grown stronger.
i'm still learning to take things in stride. when frens know abt wat's going on, some will say 'u are a very strong girl'. it pushes me forward somehow, confirms that i am indeed someone special who is able to go through all that crap and come out normal and even smiling through tears.
i'm trying to believe that i'm handling all these crap now cuz God sees the potential in me that i can make it through and emerge a stronger person. it's tough, very tough to be drill this belief into brain. but i'm trying. praying at the same time that God will help me.
- He Never Sleeps -
Claire Cloninger&Don Moen
When You've prayed every prayer that you know how to pray.
Just remember the Lord will hear and answer is on it's way.
Our God is able. He is mighty. He is faithful.
And He never sleeps He never slumbers.
He never tires of hearing our prayer.
When we are weak He becomes stronger.
So rest in His love and cast all of your cares on Him.
Do you feel that the Lord has forgotten your need.
Just remember that God is always working in ways you cannot see.
Our God is able. He is mighty. He is faithful.
And He never sleeps He never slumbers.
He never tires of hearing our prayer.
When we are weak He becomes stronger.
So rest in His love and cast all of your cares on Him
things are happening at home again. to think of it, it seems like i'm not allowed to grow up normally like other kids. i know everyone's families have their own problems.. but mine just seems waaaaaay to dramatic and it involves me too much. i always believe that as long as u are still staying under the same roof as ur parents, u will be under the protection of ur family. but for my case, i dun even have much of a family to begin with. thats sad i know. the stress and pressure is building up now that i'm back at home again. so "home" to me is not the best place for me to be in. =/ time and again i will ask myself and ask God why is it so hard for me to have a proper family, to grow up as a normal kid.
growing up caned everyday when i was pri 1 and 2, for god-knows-wat reasons. growing up thru all those screams and quarrels, when i used to hide in one corner and cry. grow up with serious suicide at home, having to handle suicide and sch work at the same time. it's damn tough. i dun think anyone (except God) will ever understand how that feel. how that i've grown up with all those hurts and scars, i'm glad to say that i've grown stronger.
i'm still learning to take things in stride. when frens know abt wat's going on, some will say 'u are a very strong girl'. it pushes me forward somehow, confirms that i am indeed someone special who is able to go through all that crap and come out normal and even smiling through tears.
i'm trying to believe that i'm handling all these crap now cuz God sees the potential in me that i can make it through and emerge a stronger person. it's tough, very tough to be drill this belief into brain. but i'm trying. praying at the same time that God will help me.
- He Never Sleeps -
Claire Cloninger&Don Moen
When You've prayed every prayer that you know how to pray.
Just remember the Lord will hear and answer is on it's way.
Our God is able. He is mighty. He is faithful.
And He never sleeps He never slumbers.
He never tires of hearing our prayer.
When we are weak He becomes stronger.
So rest in His love and cast all of your cares on Him.
Do you feel that the Lord has forgotten your need.
Just remember that God is always working in ways you cannot see.
Our God is able. He is mighty. He is faithful.
And He never sleeps He never slumbers.
He never tires of hearing our prayer.
When we are weak He becomes stronger.
So rest in His love and cast all of your cares on Him
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